Dear Fleur

A letter to self. Dear You, When God whispered upon your soul "I will enlarge your heart" at the beginning of this year.. you knew, undeniably, that fast beating organ in your chest had heard His voice. Did you think that it would come about, without some measure of discomfort, some removing of those self layers that tend to keep your heart small and in shape? You will never know a heart enlarged to the capacity God intends for it, till it matters more to you to have your heart broken by the things that break His. You will never know how much an enlarged heart can endure pain, till it matters more to you, what Your saviour thinks, than what the world thinks. You will never know the capacity of an enlarged heart, till your heart beats more for His cause, His truth, His righteousness, than it does for your own. If you want to experience what it is to know His heart, dear Fleur, you must embrace the experience of pain, being misunderstood, rejection, forsaken, loneliness, and bear it with His grace. For it is only then, it is only then that you are willing to hold up to Him a broken and yielded heart and say "GIVE ME YOURS" that you will stop meandering in your injustice, and grasp the Heavenly taste of victory. If He carried His cross, so you must carry yours. Dear Fleur. Dont give up. Dont lose sight of the hope and truth of Gods Word. Let it strip you bare. Let it render you broken. Let it send you to the farthest and darkness corners of the earth and to be to others, what He is to you.